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[09 Dec 2009|06:12pm] You say you love me, but then you turn and walk away All for a love not even born yesterday I see you on the streets and you just pass me by You think I got no feelings, think I’m living high But let me tell ya… I could be on the TV, I could be in their magazines But it’s never enough when you felt the touch Of an angel that’s rocking your soul When the Rain comes down You’re never around But when the sun comes up You always steal the fire And Rain comes down on this side of town But people have no feelings They just run around They just, they just.... We keep chasing dollars, it’s making me holler I just don’t know I don’t need a cheque, I need some respect So people you know And the war, and the babies crying And the car and the house and the rings And the things that don’t mean nothing. You can try to hate, classify and make you’re rate down But I’m here to elevate, I’ll be floating in outer space now When the Rain comes down Will you be around? When the sun comes up Will you always steal my fire? And Rain comes down on this side of town But people have no feelings People… Woo… post comment

[07 Dec 2009|08:06am] When I was 5 or 6 years old, I was in the grocery store with my mother. We were in bakery section, and I was following idly behind her, for whatever reason. I heard someone talking behind me so I turned, and there was an old man just a few feet away from me. He wasn't old, I guess, thinking back on it. He was probably in his 40s. I can't exactly remember, but I know he was wearing a worn yellow winter coat, jeans and his hair was short. He looked like he was clutching something. His skin was very black, but his hands and lower arms looked powdery. The man was blabbering, on and on, quite obviously crazy. The one thing I remember him saying is, "They ought'a've, but no one feared the black dog, not even fear." And he kept going on about this black dog. I was staring at him, and then he looked at me. Directly at me. He stopped talking, and I was completely and utterly terrified. I remember I kept praying in my mind that he would start laughing and say he was only kidding. But he didn't. He just stared at me. And then my mother ran back and grabbed my arm, pulling me away from him. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Couldn't stop thinking that I'd seen something terribly, terribly wrong, and no matter how hard I wished, it was every bit as frightening and twisted as what I was looking at. No wishing or hoping was going to change it. That's one of my earliest memories, and the my first encounter with how truly hopeless positivity can be. post comment

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[02 Dec 2009|01:42pm] Maybe my heart is an empty room. ( Also, this. ) post comment

[01 Dec 2009|08:50am] Is it weird that the song Magic Man by Heart makes me horny? 1 comment|post comment

It's starting to make sense to me, but I can't really make you love me. [30 Nov 2009|07:56am] [ music | I Wish I Knew Natalie Portman - k-os ] So I guess I'm overdue for a proper update. Let's see. Shaylor's birthday was tons of fun. We were bar hopping all night. I played my first slot machine. Won a dollar. We ended it at Coconut Grove, were we heard this groovy funk band called the Valiants play. They were really great, and we were fairly drunk. So Steve and I got up and danced. After the show, the band asked us to go outside and smoke a joint with them. Not to sound like a fangirl, but it felt so cool. H1N1 didn't hit Nena hard at all. She was pretty sick, but only for about two or three days. She's fine now. Her birthday party was really fun. All my friends came over, plus my sisters, Deja, Holden and some other kids. Nena had a blast. She got a rocking horse that she just adores. Then Cal and I watched Totoro with her after everyone went home, just to wind down. Shay, Caigan and I went to a bunch of sex shops today. I got a new vibrator and Caigan got handcuffs. It was pretty awesome. The lady at Venus Envy told me all about lubricants. I ended up buying some, and let me tell you. I've been missing out. I also got my nails done with Nicole. I think they look retarded. In regards to my recent posts, I think the less I share, the better I'll feel. So suffice to say; I haven't changed a bit. ( Read more... ) post comment

[29 Nov 2009|09:00pm] I haven't had a good cry in a long time. I think I'm overdue. 2 comments|post comment

[28 Nov 2009|05:27am] Rape me Rape me, my friend Rape me Rape me again I'm not the only one, Aaah I'm not the only one, Aaah I'm not the only one, Aaah I'm not the only one, Aaah Hate me Do it and do it Again Waste me Rape me, my friend I'm not the only one, Aaah I'm not the only one, Aaah I'm not the only one, Aaah I'm not the only one, Aaah My favorite inside source I'll kiss your open sores I Appreciate your concern You're gonna stink and burn Rape me Rape me, my friend Rape me Rape me again I'm not the only one, Aaah I'm not the only one, Aaah I'm not the only one, Aaah I'm not the only one, Aaah Rape me! (Rape me!) Rape me! (Rape me!) Rape me! (Rape me!) Rape me! (Rape me!) Rape me! (Rape me!) Rape me! (Rape me!) Rape me! (Rape me!) Rape me! (Rape me!) Rape me!!! post comment

[26 Nov 2009|07:04am] I'm thirsty, but the water's dirty. I'm hungry, but the food's no good. I'm funny, but the world's not laughing. I'm tired, but the night is done. post comment

[25 Nov 2009|05:07pm] And when the nighttime falls and the city lights shine, I'm right by your side. And I don’t need you to say you don’t love me if you don’t. ‘Cause I love you anyway Downtown Downtown Downtown post comment

[24 Nov 2009|04:58pm] New hair. To match my fiery attitude. You know, or not. 2 comments|post comment

[23 Nov 2009|06:18am] My baby turned 1 yesterday. :) Having a birthday party for her this weekend. 1 comment|post comment

[17 Nov 2009|06:34am] jay<3 1 comment|post comment

[12 Nov 2009|08:39am] Haven't laughed this hard in a long time I better stop now before I start crying Go off to sleep in the sunshine I don't want to see the day when it's dying She's a sight to see (sight to see) She's good to me (good to me) But I'm already somebody's baby She's a pretty thing And she knows everything But I'm already somebody's baby You don't deserve to be lonely But those drugs you've got won't make you feel better Pretty soon you'll find it's the only Little part of your life you're keeping together I'm nice to you I could make it through But I'm already somebody's baby I could make you smile If you stayed a while But how long will you stay with me, baby? Because your candle burns too bright Well I almost forgot it was twilight Even if I think that you are right Well I'm tired of being down, I got no fight You're wonderful And it's beautiful But I'm already somebody's baby And if I went with you I'd disappoint you too Well I'm already somebody's baby Already somebody's baby 1 comment|post comment

[11 Nov 2009|02:56am] If you weren't so pathetic, I might actually envy you. Good thing you're pathetic. Nena has H1N1. Not good with her breathing problems. I'm completely exhausted. Just wish I could fix everything. 2 comments|post comment

[02 Nov 2009|11:38pm] I see myself in peoples' faces and can't help but wonder what makes me so special that they would want to be a part of me. I spent most of my life trying to escape myself, and just when I start to like myself, I'm being pulled away in the ghost of everyone's gestures. Am I flustered, or am I flattered. I'm trying to be the latter. post comment

[30 Oct 2009|11:10pm] A rabbi and a priest are driving down the highway, and in a complete freak accident, both collide. The cars are completely demolished, but the two religious leaders are miraculously completely unscathed. They climb out of their cars and both look shocked at each other, making sure the other is alright. After sharing a few words, the rabbi says,  "You know, look at this. We've both escaped without a scratch. I think this is a sign from God, that we must set aside our differences and coexist peacefully." The priest wholeheartedly agreed. The rabbi then reached under the wreckage that was once his car and pulled out a bottle of wine from the tattered glove compartment. "And look," he said, "this bottle of wine is untouched. Perhaps a sign from God, that we should drink this wine to solidify our friendship." Again the priest agreed. The rabbi handed him the bottle and after taking a few swigs, the priest handed it back to the rabbi. The rabbi returned the cap to the bottle and put it away. The priest looked puzzled and asked, "Aren't you going to have any?" The rabbi replied,  "No, I think I'll just wait for the police to get here." I thought I'd share this, because the world is a lot like that sometimes. 2 comments|post comment

[26 Oct 2009|06:15am] Last year. This year.   I got a hair cut & I hate it. Fuck fuck fuck. post comment

[20 Oct 2009|08:49am] "I see it as a binary thing... if you at some point notice that people do not really love you after all, then they never have. You've lost nothing." Sometimes people just know what to say. post comment

[17 Oct 2009|10:55am] I want a girl with legs up to here, and hair down to the there. A girl who knows when to talk nice and knows when to swear. post comment

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